Hello,
I have about 10 to 20 minutes before I head to bed, and my cognitive abilities are hindered.
English is my primary language, the only one I speak well. I am curious about your comment, so I must ask VampireDCLXV a question. Why do you think English is not my primary language?
Lozhasleft thank you for words and observations. Yes I do think I will be content to visit here. I miss my friends and companions that have known me for many years, but I have to find my way. They have to decide if they can still be my friends. So far ...not so good.
JWS it is good to hear that someone else has gone through or felt similar feeling as myself. Today, I have no issues concerning the truth, and it is what it is. I understand that Elders, MS, Pioneers, and etc are imperfect humans. I'm unsure about where I fit or not fit.
Doubtfully Yours, thank you for your greeting.
Cyber Jesus, thank you for condensed comment and recommendation.
Outlaw, thank you for the brief comic relief. Is that a muppet ready to blow us to bits? LOL
Darth Plaugeis, as you say speak your mind. Honesty is always the best policy but tact is many times required to make some of our comments palatable.
Jookbeard - Hello. Computer Savvy - In relations to the computer, practical understanding; shrewdness or intelligence; common sense. I do know how to type between 60 to 90 words a minute, but I do not know how to maneuver through this site. I don't do "chat rooms" "facebook" "twitter" and anything else that is group related. The last time I participated in a computer group activity was ICQ 7 years ago for about 1 week. So when I say Computer Savvy it also incompasses maneuvering through the internet and this forum.
Now that I have made all the necessary greetings. This is how I feel today. Worried. Sad. Alone. Helpless. I currently do not go to Jehovah in prayer. I do not believe he will listen to the prayer of someone who does not go the meetings. I have tried to. Last year I attended a meeting in a different city so that no one would know me. Obviously, I am well too rememberable. I think people mean well when they ask "so where have you been and what congregation are you attending? Ohhhh I'm so busy with work I have to attend meetings whenenver I can in the city where I am in or some other comments equally inane. Then usually no other question and ppl start to backing away...must be a bad smell in the air....or just me. Some take pictures to send to their buddies. Guess who I saw here?. Its very stressful going to any meeting. And then at the Sunday meeting the visiting brother comes up to present his well rehearsed talk. I am very critical of the brother's address, presentation, content, and research. I don't feel that sense of being sharpened but rather of being a school marm. Instead of the feeling of brotherly love from the congregation I feel tired and ready to get out before anymore questions are asked. It does not help that my dress is too tight and my heels to high. Even I know that my dress should have been toned down. So that is how I feel today.
